oh god, i can't beleive today is the day. i had a very crazy sleep last night, lots of weird dreams. scary dreams, action packed dreams. it was a bit of a restless sleep because my nose had started to get a bit blocked before bed. i've woken up with a bit of a stuffy nose, which I'm worried about. I hope it doesn't get in the way. When I saw the anaesthetist on friday he had said someone had pulled out of their surgery because they were sick with the flu.
Its definitely not a cold or the flu yet, but it could end up that way. Usuually I would start taking vitamins or cold n flu tablets and eat lots of fruit but I can't do any of that. i got up at 6am and had a slice of toast and a mandarin and then went back to bed til 7.45am.
mum has had to go to work and dad is picking me up a bit before 11am. I've still got to pack my bag for the hospital and have a shower...

Sometimes I feel reasonably calm, other times I start to panic. I keep telling myself I am doing the right thing. And what will be a few weeks/months of healing and discomfort, will end up being years of happiness. feeling better about my body. being happier with it.

I think I'm going to get really scared when I'm at the hospital.