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28.02.03 **** new
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oh boy last day of the month which means using up the last of our monthly net usuage. i've been madly downloading anything i can think of. except stupid kazaa has too many corrupt files. i've downloaded a couple of Tick episodes but they have just been audio becoz someone can't save them properly. grrrrrrr
i am still working on the sydney pics. i promise they will be up soon. i'm so slack, i know. however, heather scanned her sticker photos in and i've added them to the Photorgasm page. see em here!
anyways uni has started up again and i'm doing 3 subjects (heheh should be doing 4 but like i said, i'm slack, i know!) i've got one 9am start which is really tough because i am so not a morning person. i really feel good about this semester, i'm doing some good subjects which, if i knuckle down and do the work, i should find kinda easy as well as interesting. i know i feel this way at the beginning of most semesters, but i think knowing that this is possibly my final year at uni is giving me the motivation kick i need. unfortunately all motivation has gone out of my "get fit" plan. haven't been to the gym in over 3 weeks.
oooh for once i actually remember about the friday five ON a friday:
1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)? novels. however magazines are pretty good when you want something to read for 5 minutes (on the toilet, on the bus, etc). i like the fact you can just pick them up, open to any page and read. but yea, novels usually- fiction- take me away to another world! i love reading.
2. What is your favorite novel? hehe can't decide... i have a few. *gets up and looks at bookcase* ok the books read most often and enjoyed enormously are: Popcorn- Ben Elton, Perfume- Patrick Suskind, Stark- Ben Elton, Remember Me- Christopher Pike, Last Act- Christopher Pike. (the last 2 are part of my secret fetish. i first read Remember Me in grade 5. i fell in love with Pike and have collected his books ever since. i think i have almost the whole collection. however those 2 were the first two i read and subsequencely they are my favourites. however i really do love all Pike's novels. i've read every book of his i own at least 10 times each).
3. Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!) oh shit that's hard.... i know there have been poems in the past i have loved. (including sylvia path during my "stoner/hippy/wanker" stage) i forgot that another favourite book/s is john lennon's "in his own write" and "a spandiard in the works". i just really enjoy john's wierd sense of humour. *flips open the book* ok this will do:
THE MOLDY MOLDY MAN
I'm a moldy moldy man
I'm moldy thru and thru
I'm a moldy moldy man
You would not think it true.
I'm moldy til my eyeballs
I'm moldy til my toe
I will not dance I shyballs
I'm such a humble Joe.
yes he really did spell through as "thru".
actually i just found a poem (more like prose)i wrote in like 1995 sometime. we smoked way too much pot back then. read it here.
4. What is one thing you've always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read? i guess out of some morbid curiousity i've always wanted to read the bible. the book i want to read at the moment is "the house of leaves"- heather's read it and it sounds cool.
5. What are you currently reading? still half way thru "The Books of Blood" by Clive Barker, and still half way thru "The Two Towers"... heheh i started it last year but put it down and forgot about it.
steve's home with wok on in. i can't stop eating take out. :(
24.02.03
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ebay madness!!!!! i've gone crazy and started buying loads of stuff off ebay (mainly just dvd's) including buffy season 1. 2. 3 and 5, dead or alive 1 & 2, a hard days night collectors ed. (very very excited about this!). we've moved on to looking at The Tick collectables, dvd's, comics etc......
it rained all day long. perfect day to watch movies and laze around the house. and guess what we did all day? heheh the couch is in front of the computer so we can watch dvd's. its only now at middnite i start to wake up and regret wasting another day. Not just another day, but my second last day of holidays. altho university started again today, i don't start til wednesday. 4 friggin months have passed, and i feel like i've done jack all. i don't know why i have no motivation.... today was absolutely amazing- just quality time with steve, eating out together, curling up on the couch together. i could seriously do this day in, day out... why can't i just live like this instead of studying and working? heh.... i wish....
meh i can't write about anything i want to. i'm always conscious of who could read it. that's the one thing i regret about my site- letting all my friends and family know about it. i can no longer use it as a private journal- expressing my feelings, and just saying what i want to.
hahah sorry got distracted. this wierd ass mockumentary about this norwegian boy band called "Boyzvoiced". god damn its hiliarious.
went out last nite to family with rach (yes that's right, she's still alive!) elle and roseanne. it was "Fluffy" nite at family. sooo many cute gay boys. anyway i took a few photos and i've put them up. check them out here. i'm feeling a bit depressed yet unmotivated to do anything to change the situation- i haven't gone to the gym in weeks and i've put on a bit of weight again.... and i can see it in these pictures. i know its such a stupid thing to get unpset about, and i'm not an easily depressed person. i guess its just going back to uni and feeling unprepared means every little thing seems worse than it is. i know its as simple as just going to the gym.
anyway, i ran into my ex-bestfriend/ex-flatmate veronica. we lived together in 2000 and i hadn't really seen her since i moved out. it was good to see her again, although very wierd. whats wierder is that she is now working with nick- the guy i moved in with when ron and i moved apart. nick and i ended up semi-together but kept it a secret from our other 2 housemates. we kept this up for 4 months until they found out and i was kicked out of the house. although i have been over nick for a long long time, its wierd to see him because our quasi-relationship was over so quickly without any sort of 'closure' for me. i never had the opportunity to hate him, to scream at him, to let him know how much he hurt me. so when i do see him i want to hate him... only he's so friggin friendly. friendly to the point where it makes me want to puke. he is a great guy and he has no hard feelings, which makes it hard for me to hold a grudge. i ran into him in the city last friday and it shook me up kinda bad..... and then 2 days later i run into veronica who is working with him. talk about worlds colliding..... all this reminiscing and seeing ex's all at once is probably adding to this mood i'm in.
gah maybe i shouldn't post this... its not really making sense. i'm just a little scattered, tired and a wee bit drunk. not a good combination when trying to write a coherent post.
22.02.03
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fuck you george bush! your stupid "lets go to war" antics have made the american dollar piss weak. which is fine if i wanted to come to your stinkin country (which, btw i really really do- only i still cant afford it) but WHICH SUCKS IF I WANT TO TURN AMERICAN DOLLARS INTO AUSSIE DOLLARS THRU PAYPAL OR OVERSEAS CHEQUES!!!!!! its not like i makde alot of money off my site at all, but now you have to go and fuck everything up even more and turn what little money i do make into even smaller amounts of money/ GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
on a brighter note, after wearing asa's shirt on cam, someone contacted ace about purchasing me another :) sweeet! any girls out there, you should so check out asa's store, she's so talented.
grrrr, i forgot to upload this and now its 4am and i'm home from work. i'm almost finished with the sydney pics. they should be up tomorrow. too tired at the moment. blah. check out gerard's site. this boy is too talented for his own good. i really want to buy a good digital camera. only money is the biggest issue. anyone want to recommend any cameras? good ones, while still being reasonably affordable. gerard uses a Canon Powershot G1......
20.02.03
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ANOTHER UPDATE: this is what happens when i spend a
day online. i keep thinking of things to post.
yesterday rachel (my ex-flatmate), elle,
heather and i
all went to market day at our uni. its orientation week and lectures start
up again next week. eeeeeek. anyway we had fun just shitting around and
ended up in the city together. i dragged everyone in to get sticker photos,
coz it aint often that all 4 of us are together. we got 4 sticker pics
each and these are my four here.
i will try to get rach's and elle's pics and get theirs scanned in. heather
is going to do hers tomorrow. i just love sticker photos. in 1999 when
i lived in thailand i would take at sticker photos at least twice a week.oh
i was a master at all the cheesy asian poses. heheh.
i watched the trailor to "League
of Extraordinary Gentlemen" last nite. phwoar! it look so awesome.
and X-men 2. hehe can't
wait!
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UPDATE: BWHAHAHAHHAAHAHH EWWWWWW GROSSSSSSSS
I JUST GOT MY FIRST PENIS PIC IN SO LONG. EW! HEHEHEH I JUST SENT IT TO
HEATHER AND MADE
HER SCREAM. GAH HE IS HOLDING IT LIKE ITS A PET. WHY DO GUYS INSIST ON
SENDING THEIR HORRIBLE PENIS'S TO GIRLS? ITS GROSSSSSS.
who wants to see ugly penis? i'm sure you won't be able to resist. click
HERE for ugly penis!
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i am jacks neverending sickness. still coughing up my lungs.
i finally got around to changing the link for the forums (sorry heather!) so everyone go to the forums and sign up!!!!!
18.02.03 (later this afternoon)
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iknow a boy who doesn't have luck on his side. he has been trying, yet things aren't turning around for him. it upsets me greatly becoz i can't help him, he must help himself. and he does. but for so long his luck has been turning sour and i'm sure it gets him down, in fact i know it gets him down. and sometimes he loses sight of the motivation and strength he has to keep on trying. i've been lucky to have things work out quite hassle free. i haven't had as many disappointments and for that i am thankful. but his situation makes me depressed. and i have never been depressed before.
i just re-discovered the song "daddy i'm fine" by sinead oconnor. its on repeat and i'm singing my lungs out..... badly.
18.02.03
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can i say, FUCKING REAL ESTATE AGENTS?!?!?!?
gah its almost 5am. i got home from work and have been cleaning a bit
becoz we have a fucking inspection tomorrow of our place. 7 days notice
my big fat ass! it says it was issued on the 14th, and the inspection
is today (the 18th)... that's fucking 4 days. and it only arrived in the
mail midday 17th. stupid damn realestate. not to mention I WORK FRIGGIN
NIGHTS! why must every fucking business ring or make appointments for
9am? blargh.
on a wonderful note, i loved sydney and had such a blast. pics will be up shortly. and i miss asa already. she is such a doll and looked after me so well. she took me to the best clubs, had our names on the doors so we had express and free entry, we dined at fantabulous restaurants, and she and her boy, javier, even sacrificed their valentines day and spent it with me! ehhehee. however, i'm damn glad to be home in good ol brisbane and back in the sweet arms of my love, steve. i would love to live in sydney, but not quite yet. its nice to come home to the comfort of the familiar surroundings. tho i wasn't too impressed to be back at work so soon. *sigh* need the money tho. i have some awesome clothes to show for my trip..... and a very empty wallet.
its orientation week at uni, and altho i don't really have to go along to anything being a 3rd year student, i might pop in on wednesday for market day and score some free shit. i can't beleive holidays are over. 3 months went by so quickly. ergh ergh.
on a slightly sour note, before i run off to catch a few hours sleep before being rudely awaken by stupid real estate people, i just make a few comments to anyone who has come to my site from camwhores. if you're a member then you may be familiar with all the shit thats gone down in the forums and on the site involving asa and i. if you don't know what's going on, then you're lucky and i won't go thru it again. i apologise to anyone who enjoys my site and my cam and chatting on the tagboard. i know there are a few of you out there. unfortunately its the attitude of the rest of the members that has made me decide not to interact on the site for some time. i am offended, hurt, confused and quite pissed off and i think its better for everyone if i just lay low for a while. i really enjoy tagging, but you wont see me on there for some time. please feel free to contact me thru my site (comments, or emails).
its shit like this that makes me regret ever getting online. i wish i had just stayed an anonymous blog site. right now, hits are meaningless. i wish i could get just a few quality hits rather than alot of hits from ppl only after things i don't deliver.
blargh again. i don't want to think about this. anyway, if you are wondering why i'm absent from the tagboard. this is why. i will return one day.
cheers
rhi
ps- 100,000 ppl from brisbane, 500,000 nation wide, 10 million world wide all protesting against war. and john howard still says he's not convinced the large crowds at anti-war rallies were evidence that public opinion was firming against war...... can we lose the fucktard now please!?
12.02.03
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i'm about to call a cab in 20 minutes to take me to the train station where i'm catching the airport train out and meeting my mummy at the domestic airport and then we're flying to sydney!!!!!!! YAY!
i'm still kind of sick (damn sickness just when i want to go on holidays) but its starting to clear up. a few more days of oranges and pills should clear things up.
tentative plans so far, wed arvo- just hanging out with
my aunty and uncle and cousin, mimi.
thursday- all day shopping. i believe its late nite shopping
in sydney on thursday, so it really WILL be all day/nite shopping. asa
might come along too.
friday- go to asa's
house. we are definately going to be on cam, and if you aren't a member
of camwhores....
well, you're going to miss out on all of the action. join
to see livian & asa
show. then we're maybe going out.
saturday- not sure yet. but maybe going out again! sydney
clubs! wheeee.
sunday- back to aunty's. then in the arvo coming home.
not a very long trip. but should be good anyway. a nice break right before
uni starts up again....... holidays are almost over :( and i've done very
little of what i wanted to accomplish while on summer break. i've worked,
i've kinda saved (tho after this trip to sydney, i'll be poor all over
again), i've moved house, i've redone my website, i've joined a gym and
then got slack and stopped going, i've gone out a little bit...... oh
well, i've had fun. i am getting a bit restless and want to get back to
study.... but i know as soon as it starts, there will be a billion things
i want to do, and never enough time. once uni starts up again, the longing
for holidays will return. but of course.
ok better pack up the last few things..... hope i haven't forgotten anything.... undies, bras, socks, clothes (hopefully enough for all occasions and for 4 days), phone, charger, digi camera, toothbrush, makeup, shoes...... money! almost forgot my spending money! hehehe
keep an eye out on friday/saturday (australian time) for asa and i on cam. either here or over at aceEntance.
cheers
10.02.03
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maybe comments aren't such a good idea, if its going to result to pathetic attempts at abuse. hmmmmm. you don't like my site, or me, then don't fucking come here. simple as that. i don't care about your opinions. if you only want to see my tits, then join camwhores. but don't come to my site. and don't multiple post pretending to be different. i can see your ip address.
don't you just love the delete function!!??
anyways, feeling pretty seedy and my sinus's are playing up. steve and
i have been mucking around and coming up with ideas for the hollardores
website, which should be up and running soon.
oh i watched 'ring' last nite (the japanese version). pretty fucking creepy....
am looking forward to watching the hollywood version. only hoping they
didn't fuck it up. steve's opinion is "if it ain't broke, don't fix
it" but i think if done right, it could be really good. anyone seen
it? guess i'm waiting til it comes out on dvd.
2 days til sydney, 4 days til i stay at asa's! yay!
09.02.03
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well the comments are working just fine now that i have fixed a few colour problems. thanks for all the kind words. steve was pleased to see he has a fan..... (ben i hope that you!) heheh. but hey, i like my "j-lo" glasses. hell i didn't even realize they are j-lo style, i'm not exactly a fan of good ol jenny from the block. anyways, they were cheap and comfy so :P
last nite we had our weekly dinner/drinks/movie night at josh's house. steve and i, josh and kristy, heather and rob, dani and adam. they are out in the burbs in a cute little unit quite like mine. but a few months ago they received a letter from a lady who lives in the block behind them.... it was hilarious. she complained about the noise and about our language (which is fair enough, coz we can all be quiet dirty sometimes... ok all the time) but she straight out called josh and us "drug takers" saying only drug dealers talk that filthy, and that explains why they rent!!!! .for fucks sake, she flat out said coz we're young and up late we must all be drug takers, renting, unemployed etc. oh i'm sorry, i didn't realize 20 year olds who study should own houses alreadyanyway we had a good laugh at that and josh had spoken to his realestate agent about it. anyway, josh just came and picked steve up to go to practice and there was a letter in his mailbox this morning (regarding last nite). it started off "ok druggos....." HAHAHAHAHAH she keeps threatening to call the drug squad and shit. what a fucking loser. i mean, if she had come over and said "look, its late, be quiet" or even came over and yelled, that would be fine. but instead she leaves anonymous letters called us all druggos and bums and "rent-ers" and says she'll call the drug squad. hehehehe. miss "i own a unit in the burbs". oh that's something to be damn proud of!
gah, isn't this always the way. i'm planning to go away for a holiday and i get fucking sick. i woke up the other morning with a sore throat and its developed into a cold. i was all sinusy last night and now i'm just all sniffy. gotta go do some grocery's and i'm going to stock up on vitamin c, echinacea (sp?) and cold and flu tablets. i have some fo the echinacea liquid now which you're spose to dilute in water or juice. man its rancid stuff. but hopefully it does its job, if i can just get past the nasty taste and stop dry retching every time i try to take it.
anyone know any quick cold fixes? even if i can just keep the cold at bay for another week. i can get sick when i get home again, but i want to be well for sydney. so can't wait to catch up with asa again.
ok the fake tan has soaked in, so i'm off to get dressed and go to the shops.
UPDATE: well altho its sunday here, i'm going to do the friday five anyway....
1. What did you have for breakfast this morning? If you didn't have breakfast, why not? cereal- weetbix, sustain, all bran and toasted muslie. i like to mix my cereals.
2. What's your favorite cereal? crunchy nut cornflakes. but they are too sugary for everyday eating.
3. How often do you eat out? Do you want that to change? way too much for my budget. altho never at really expensive restaurants. usually just local cafe's or asian food. i can't wait to be able to eat out at fancy restaurants often.
4. What do you plan on having for dinner tonight? Got a recipe for that? i'm about to go grocery shopping and i think we'll have fish (grilled with garlic and lemon) salad and mashed potato. wrap the fish fillets in aluminum foil, with garlic, lemon juice, chilli flakes and any other herbs you like. put it under the grill for 10-20 mins or until cooked.
5. What's your favorite restaurant? Why? the two places we go to most often, and i love, are 'Y-BAR' for cafe style sandwiches and 'WOK ON IN' for asian food. vegetarian laksa.
08.02.03 ****new comments function!****
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ok i've tried to set up a comments function thru enetation, so lets see
if it works....
"say something...."
"test 1, 2 3...."
"....anthing but that."
05.02.03 ****new gallery of pics****
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GUESS WHO'S HEADLINING TONIGHT?!?!?! that's right...... its the hollar dores!!!!!! yay. tonite, 8pm @ the zoo the hollardores are playing with supafish (the christian ska band.... ummmmm riiiiiiight) and life in cars (no link for these computer illiterate ppl). omg, what am i going to wear?!?!?!? i had a dream last night i was karate chopping groupies, and fighting all these girls who were trying to grope steve.... hmm i wonder if its a sign of things to come? eeek. if you cant make the gig (there really is no excuse for not coming..... unless a large body of water is in your way) neverfear, becoz there will be a shitload of photos circulating the web in less than 24 hours. heather and i are both coming equipped with camera to document the boys.
on a slightly different note, i'll be flying to sydney with my mum in only a weeks time. staying with my aunty and uncle for a few days, there will be lots of shopping and then i'm spending the weekend with asa! (SLEEEEPOVER!!!!) we will most definately be on cam together.... and perhaps there might even be a members show involved...;) so if you aren't a member of camwhores, sign up now. asa's promised to take me out and show me sydney nightlife. i cannot wait! eeeeee!
04.02.03
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steve's a sexy bitch. he wanted me to say it. so i did. hahaha.
ok i rushed into town as soon as i woke this morning to get my hands on a copy of dolly magazine which i knew had come out today. coz guess who was in it?!?!?!? no..... not nay..... but close..... ME, and rhi and kitta!!!! dolly is a teen magazine here in oz, but its still fucking awesome to see myself in the magazine. yes, i shamefully used to collect dolly magazines when i was 13-15. and i still jump at the chance to read an issue if i can. anyway, it wasn't as bad as alot of camgirl articles, it didn't bag us out too much and i wasn't misquoted or anything. i'm pretty pleased. unfortunately they just grabbed some cam still off my old site. not the best pictures, but oh well. hehe now i want some 13 year old girl to recognise me in the street, that would be awesome! "hey mum, there's that cam whore from dolly!!!" ok that wouldn't be so great.
since it was raining all day i was forced to stay indoors, in the shops. and ended up spending waaaaay too much money. but i got some awesome clothes. new jeans (which fit- i could pull my old jeans off without unbuttoning them) and some cool tops.
anyway i have to work tonite so i better go get ready. plus steve's complaining i'm ignoring him. whinger.
cheers, RHI!!!!!
03.02.03 ****i'm having a photorgasm
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i am all wrinkly and prune-like after the longest, hottest bath i've had in ages. since its summer here in the land down under, hot baths haven't been top of my agenda. cold showers on the other hand have been a plenty. but its a dreary day- overcast and rainy and actually sort of cold. i recently bought a few more bath products from LUSH, plus had heaps of goodies left over from xmas/bday presents. needless to say my skin is silky smooth and i smell so LUSH! hohoho. to top off my special day i was going to give myself a face mask. however, becoz LUSH products are made from fresh ingredients and i had had this mask for quite awhile, it had GONE MOLDY! i am so sad. grrrrrrrr.
ok, you'll notice down the bottom of the site there are 2 counters to tell me how many ppl are on the site. however they are always showing different numbers :( i don't know what the hell that means.
bored yesterday, so i ended up creating a victoria's secret wishlist. lame i know. but god damn they have some sexy stuff. if i had a credit card i swear i would go nuts on all the online stores. it feels like i haven't gone shopping in ages. this season's fashion has been so god damn awful, i just haven't been able to buy anything even when i have the money to spare. i can't stand peasant tops and pale pink frilly things. lace, frills, puffy sleeves- ergh its so not me. gimme blacks and reds and bold shapes.
argh simpsons are on. be back later.