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30.04.03
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****UPDATE****
in typical procrastination form, i'm posting when i should be working.
its late and i've got class early in the morning. i so dont want to go
and unless i go to bed soon i won't make it. i'm downloading new buffy....
oooh the temptation to watch it might be too strong for me to resist.
the evil class tomorrow is contemporary issues in design technology...
sounds like a bunch of art wank right? it is. and i'm so not good at this
shit- wanking on for 2500 words about a topic i don't really care about
nor have anything important to say about. i like the lecture we had on
'culture jamming', so i thought i might do that topic for the assignment.
but what to say about culture jamming?!?! i submitted a really rough idea
of an essay to my lecturer and he admitted it was very rough but could
be good.... however now i'm starting to doubt myself. i thought about
writing about Michael Moore, John Safran, Jackass etc, and whether they
are culture jammers? there is a history of media pranks etc that are used
to communicate alternate messages through subversion, humour etc. i was
thinking about doing something on this, related to the methods employed
by media "pranksters"...
however, whenever i attempt to do any research i get distracted by all
the cool websites that come up, related to these guys. i dont know....
from an art wank point of view- what does everything think of the topic?
reckon i could somehow pull it off as a 2500 word university essay? i'd
really like ANYone's thoughts, opinions? i'm stuck in a hole of depression
at the moment. so much to do in the next month...... i want more time-
but so many good things happening in a little over a months time, so i
want time to fly by.
i had a chat with one of my lecturers tonite after class- we were both
waiting for our buses, and he asked me
"so rhiannon, where are you headed after this year?"
and i confessed to him that i'm scared shitless of what i'm going to do
with myself in a little over 6 months time. for 4 years now i've lived
in the comfort and safety of being a "student"... oh
yea, i'm studying, that's what i'm doing with my life. i'm studying to
be something great. not sure what yet. but i'll cross that bridge when
i come to it..... only now here i am, in final year at uni, and still
as clueless as ever. all around me i'm seeing my fellow students finding
their place, their little niche.
In my course you can branch off and specify in a certain field- 3d animation,
2d animation, programming etc.... however i've done none of that. none
of that is for me..... i hate this feeling. this feeling of being nothing
special. in a course/career where skill is so important, there is nothing
worse then just being "ok". in fact i'm just "ok"
at everything, but not fabulous at ANYthing.
i sometimes feel like thats been my whole life. i've been good at certain
things, but nothing more- not exceptional, never the best, just good.
i dont konw where my lifes headed because i haven't found anything i really
love/am really great at. i loved drama and acting in high school and i
was pretty fucking good too. but i was always 2nd best to fiona (who was
one of my best friends- but god damn i resented her). a few times i got
better marks in drama exams, but over all she always seemed to come out
ontop. she was the one everyone would recognise as the schools "drama
queen"- she was so loud, over-exaggerated all her movements, played
the comic relief characters well with her over-exaggerating of EVERYthing.
i dont like over the top humour. my personal tastes are for subtle, dry
humour. definately liked more serious pieces. but that's not what everyone
wanted- they wanted over the FUCKING top acting.
i always felt like i was being undercut- had i been anywhere else perhaps
i might have got more recognition, but under her shadow i could be nothing
but her sidekick. it was just so frustrating always been overlooked. oh
fiona's the drama queen coz she's so loud and outgoing- she's so dramatic
in her speech and actions in real life. but because i wasnt in 'dramatic'
mode every second of my day, i wasn't drama queen material. i hated being
at a small school, and from a small town. it was the same little group
of people who were involved in the local theatre- hell, half my teachers
at school were involved. and they alll loved fiona. heh i know i'm sounding
like such a bitter bitter person, but its something that's bothered me
so much in high school. these feelings of being so average, i had tonite
have just brought back these feelings i've had vented up inside me for
so long.
wow this turned out to be quite a post. heh, its really late now. i better head off to bed or do some uni work. but if anyone has any opinions on the topic mentioned above, i would greatly appreciate the advice. love ya all.
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new buffy!!!! wheeee! ok this is sad, i'm already addicted to the new
big brother.
i just can't bring myself to pay for the premium membership- but i so
want to see the streaming cams! anyone know anyway to hack into bb website?
i just booked steve and my train tickets home to bundaberg for mum's 50th
bday party end of may. should be good. looking forward to going home-
in need of a haircut, plus going home is always so relaxing. the house
is so familiar (i lived there since 94), smells familiar, is always clean,
fridge and pantry is always full- unlike my place here :) heh.
i'm having a bit of stress about finances at the moment. i seem to work heaps but the money just slips through my fingers. heather's birthday party is this weekend and rach and i are buy her a present, then my mum's birthday late may, then my dad's birthday june 8th and then steve's birthday june 11th. plus i'm trying to save for a trip to sydney in late june with rhiannon. i hate money issues :( not to mention all the uni work. blah blah blah. usual bullshit i ramble on about.
write more later.
24.04.03
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i made me a tacky button! wheeee. link me! i want hits!
i have rediscovered the joy of making linking buttons. flashy is always fun. html in javascript clothing. steve made a geek joke.
dad came over for dinner tonite. then i had great sex.
with steve.....
after dad left....
COME ON people, how dirty do you think i am?
my weeks break is almost up and of course i've accomplished nothing.
tho i've been doing tae bo every few days, and feeling a little more energised
coz of it. i've even been turning the cam on so you can see me frozen
in time, in a bad taebo pose. if you haven't seen this fabulous event
then you are sorely missing out. speaking of fabulous events, the hollardores
have moved up the ranks in the brisbane music scene by landing a gig at
the healer. quite a funky little venue, which has had a number a big name
bands grace its stage. anyway, 8pm this saturday (26th) is when you should
all turn up. unfortunately, being the horrible girlfriend that i am, i
will not be attending. its steve's big moment in the sun and i won't be
there to support him. he is so hurt and i deserve eternal torment for
this horrible horrible crime.
but, hey everyone needs money, and its not my fault i forgot the date
and then couldn't get anyone to cover my shift :( steve forgives me, so
can you. *insert steve making a coughing noise here*
rhiannon is definately coming to australia and i'm soooo excited. early june she arrives. yay! plans to go to sydney and visit asa are in the works. 5 years we've chatted via the interweb and FINALLY we will meet! yayayayyaya! i promise to clean the house before she comes and stop steve from running around naked and shaking his wang at the neighbours. just joking... the house is already clean.
ok i must sleep now, coz rach is coming over earlish (for me earlish = before 12) and then we're trekking out to the sticks (aka nundah) for heather's nutrimetics party! wheeee we're like old women who have tupperware parties, but with cosmetics (old women's makeup). i'm sure heather would have mentioned this on her blog if her site hadn't exceeded bandwidth. so instead, i'll mention it. heather is hosting a nutrimetics party and we're all invited. even oystein (rach's norwegian friend) is coming. yes oystein is a boy, but even boys need good skin care regimes. hopefully we get to try lots of cool facial products! HOO HAA! ok its hot chocolate time then sleep for this girl.
ps jack- thanks for the article link. it was an awesome read. :)
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tehnically its 22.04 already since its past middnite but oh well. new buffy episode comes out in the states today! wheee. work was hell boring and quiet on saturday as i guess everyone was off doing family things on this lovely easter weekend. i slept most of sunday, steve came home (yay) and then on sunday night i hit the town (i mean, valley) with jane (good friend from a few years back-she's been all over south east asian lately so i haven't seen her in quite some time), jonny and ross. usually on sunday nights, the family the pretty awesome with 'fluffy'- just a good amount of people and awesome music, but becoz monday was a public holiday EVERYONE was out. the line was around the block. jonny's members card got passed around and we got in fairly quick thru the vip line, but it was so crowded and the music was way heavy. we had pills and as they were about to kick in we totally needed space to dance/sit/laze around, so we headed up to the moon bar. it was empty considering everyone was at family. anyway we had an E-xcellent time, dancing and catching up. man, it felt good to be out with jane and jonny again. ahh the shit we used to get up to. and no matter how much time passes, as soon as we are together again its exactly the way it was between us. make a quick cameo over at no.12 (new club beside family), where axel and the sexy chickas from team-plastique were hanging out. i took a few happy snaps last nite, tho i really had to learn not to take pics when i'm that fucked. my smile is either massively cheesy, or i think i look sexy and sultry when in fact i just look trashed. check them out, but dont laugh. jane-E has cut her hair into a cute little pixie cut, and spiked it up in a bit of a mo... looked fucking awesome. i am getting due for a trim, but will have to waiit til late may when i go back to bundy for mum's 50th.
oh yea, i also put some pics up from last thursday nite. me, heather and rachel were quite pissed and got rob to take our pictures.... we are such posers, but i know a few people who read my site will be glad for the miz chii material. its rare to catch rach in a 'happy-to-pose-for-photos' kind of mood.
well its getting late and my face feels like its going to crack and fall off coz this mud mask has been on for way too long. ooh yea, also i was cleaning around my computer and in my desk draw and i re-found my digital film i did for a subject last year- starring rachel & steve. i have chucked it up for anyone interested to see. its 25MB tho. but yea, check it out. and i also found a little short video that we took in newcastle last year, featuring camgirl extraordinaires- sammie, asa, zofia, heather and myself. we were in the male toilets and for some reason we thought that was the perfect place to take a short video. its here if you want to see.
this post is just full of things to see and listen to, so i guess that will mask the fact that i have nothing to actually say. had thai for dinner, feeling very full yet could totally eat more. ooh and i went to a thai restaurant yesterday with elle and lars and had som tum (spicy papaya salad) and sticky rice. very traditional dish that i miss so much. it was the best som tum i had ever tasted here in australia, so i was very pleased. woooh now that was some content for ya.
19.04.03
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1. Who is your favorite celebrity? i love this series of questions, but damn its hard. well i'd have to say alyson hannigan coz of my latest obsession. but close seconds are christina ricci (such attitude, i wish i had the confidence to be that arrogant) and kirsten dunst
2. Who is your least favorite? nicky & paris hilton. gah i can't stand these girls- they do nothing but party and that's what they are famous for. i mean, i am 110% totally jealous- but since my life isn't that, then i hate them for having the life i want.
3. Have you ever met or seen any celebrities in real life? i met isla fisher (she was in scooby doo) and melissa george (who was in Sugar & Spice) in 1995, when i went down to sydney. my aunty has connections and we went to channel 7 studio's. i saw home & away being filmed and met the girls. i also met catriona rowntree (television presenter) at aunty dale's wedding in 1996. dale is good friends with catriona. click here for pics. i met a thai actor, and sorta dated him. can't find anything online but when i bring my thai photos back from bundy i'll post pics.
4. Would you want to be famous? Why or why not? yes, in a heartbeat. i don't know why- i guess its insecurities, and i need to feel recognised, i like the idea of people knowing who i am. i crave public approval.
5. If you had to trade places with a celebrity for a day, who would you choose and why? alyson hannigan- she's beautiful, seems really natural, and hell, i'd love to be working with sarah michelle gellar and james marsters all the time. :)
elle and i had a bit of a buffy marathon last nite and watched half of season 4. i've slept away most of today and have to work tonite. ergh. steve's gone to josh's for the entire weekend for a 3 day/2 night games/movies/bullshitting weekend. i was going to go, however felt a bit icky after having drinks at rach's house on thursday nite. its only been 24 hours but i'm clingy and miss him heaps. sleeping alone last nite was wierd and lonely. i slept on his side of the bed. lame heh.
nothing else interesting to talk about. have a good easter weekend all.
15.04.03 **** SHOW-N-TELL pics added
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grrrr argh. i want to have a song on my site (seems to be the current camgirl trend), giving you the option of turning it on or off. coz i know there is nothing worse than an annoying song automatically playing, and no way of turning it off. especially when you would much prefer to be listening to your own music. i tried to use renee's html as an example,and jessika offered her code as more examples- but i could NOT get it working. anyway, i was told by tagboarders that the music was infact playing/working for them. i just can't hear it, which seems to be becoz i don't have real one player. and in the code (feel free to take a look) its got "type="audio/x-pn-realaudio-plugin"", which would support that theory. however, so does nay's code and i can hear her song just fine. anyone got any clue?
anyway, i got bored and with my latest obsession (buffy) i couldn't help but put alyson on my site. ahh willow. i feel like redesigning my site but i think that will have to wait for a while. til the uni work dies off. i keep forgetting how soon shit is due, and spent yet another day in my house, in front of the computer today. i haven't left the house yet and its nearly 10pm. sad huh? i think i shall go lie in front of the tv. angel will be on soonish. ooh and today is 15th april.... which is when buffy episode 18 plays in the states. so i guess i'll have to wait til tomorrow but then i should be able to get a copy. yay! any buffy fans out there, have you read any of the spoiler sites, and do you have any theories as to how buffy will end? i just rewatched Season 2, episode 3 "Schools Hard", where Spike and Dru first arrive in Sunnydale. funny thing, Spike calls Angel his sire.... but Angel is Dru's sire and Dru is Spike's sire.... why would he say that? was that a fuck up the writers made (thinking Spike wouldn't last more than 5 episodes?) or what? wierd. i would definatley like to hear from any buffy fans who happen to read this. omg episode 13 and 17 of this current series were so fucking awesome. kk tv calls.
14.04.03
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tis monday nite and josh, kristy, heather, rob and dani are over for dinner, drinks and games. and i'm feeling a bit pissy and felt the need to pull myself away from the fun and games and post. steve made a big curry for dinner- was a different one to the usual rogan josh that he has made in the past. this one was a tikka masala (sp?)- had yoghurt, coriander and lemon in it which added a real nice taste. of course i had to go and fuck up my one job i had during dinner preparation (can you tell i'm not a cook?).... 2 and a half cups of rice looked like heaps but it was just barely enough. i'm still a bit hungry.....
ok drunken ramble here, so i don't plan for it to be coherent much. i'm
listening to a sean lennon & rufus wainwright cover of the beatles
song, "this boy". fuckin hell, rufus wain wright (who ever he
is) has an amazing voice. my dad was over the other night and when i played
some songs for him he knew who rufus was. i googled him and he's pretty
fucking hot. unfortuantely, gay.. i read somehwere. i totally can't get
enough of Cibo Matto... they
are so cool. and their songs are soo catchy. if i could recommend a few
songs for you to download, i would have to say :
--Lint of Love
--Clouds
--Sugar Water (the song off buffy season 2 episode 1)
--Moon Child
--About a girl (nirvana cover)
so yea, download them now! very very catchy songs. i wonder if they are still around and playing? anyone in new york, lemme know (comments or email) if they are still around and playing.
so yea, the boys are playing hero clix or something. heather tried to explain it to me, and it sounds cool (the figurines are DC & Marvel characters) but its still a bit over my head. games aren't my thing... anymore. in grade 11 i was the only girl in a group of guys who played Dungeons & Dragons. yes, i played D&D...AD&D in fact. ok, the reason i joined is coz i dated a guy who played- he told me about it and it sounded pretty cool, and i just wanted to hang around him some more.... but i really did have fun. of course, i was a very feminine elf as my character- but what i loved more was the sleepovers we'd have at this guys house. even after we stopped seeing each other, i'd still continue to play. it was awesome. even tho i was a girl, they treated me like one of the guys. we'd play AD&D all afternoon/evening then order pizza and pig out and then play computer games til all hours of the night. they didn't treat me any different just coz i was a girl- i was sleeping on the lounge room floor with 3 or 4 snoring guys around me on various couches and sofas. and these guys weren't overly cool- they were great guys but not exactly the coolios of the school by any means. but it was cool. ahhh high school, how i miss thee. kristy, heather and i were all reminiscing about primary/high school before. i was so eager to get out of school while i was there, and as soon as i leave i wish i was back there. i know it will probably be the same with university- not that i've had the typical "movie american" college experience. i didn't live on campus, i didn't join any college groups- we don't have frats and sororities or anything like that (do we?) that's one of the reasons why i think american colleges are like our high schools. the subjects you take- the courses you take seem more like our high school system- higher than that, but not quite like universities. our universities are so much more defined and specific-even the "arts degrees". i mean, the course i'm taking is called "Bachelor of Creative Industries- Communication Design".... sounds pretty wanky. but it is (in a nutshell) a webdesign/multimedia course, with the option to branch off into a really really specified major- like 3d animation, music & sound... or something like that. i'm just doing generel webdesign with a SUBmajor (different thing all together) in Media Communications (only becoz i did one year of a Bachelor of Arts-Media Studies and i have gained credit for many of those subjects... don't understand? that's ok, neither do i- i went and saw the head of the course and said "ok this is what i've done. one year of media studies and 2 years of Comm. Des..... when can i finish?" and she managed to get me credit for about 6 or 7 subjects.)
anyway, this is ramble and it doesn't make sense to me anymore, coz i
went and read some more of Teresa's
diary. i've had the password for ages, but backtracked to her first entry
and have been reading it from there so i would understand everything.
and i am a bit slack. i read an entry or two and then get distracted.
but the private diary function is something i've been considering for
a while. too many people in my real life read my website. i hate it (note
to anyone reading my site who i know in real life- FUCK OFF! hehehe jokes)
when i first started a website/journal thing, late 2000 no one knew about
it. hell i used to bitch about my flatmate at the time coz she had no
idea about my site or how to find it. but now, everyone i know is net
savvy and reads my site now and again. which means i censor my diary accordingly.
even steve- sometimes i want to express my feelings or thoughts about
stuff involving my boy, but i can't... coz he reads the site, and so does
a bunch of his friends. what would everyone (however few that is) feel
about a private diary? like teresa's from oish.com....
only i still think i would write in my public journal more often than
the private one.
reading oish.com makes
me feel so UNmotivated. teresa is such an awesome personality- i know
she's not perfect and you can even see that in her website/diary but she
is so motivated and strives to improve her life. whereas, i see what's
wrong in my life, what i would like to change, but i don't have the motivation
to do so..... i end up wasting day after day sleeping/on the computer
etc. sometimes i wish i didn't have a night job and went to bed before
midday on a regular occasion. so i could get up before midday and actually
have a full and productive day. its hard when my partner is just as lazy
as i am. i sleep in til midday every day, then sit on the computer til
mid afternoon before finally getting my ass into the shower.
hell, most days (unless i have uni) i don't leave the house til evening,
IF at all. seriously. day in, day out, when i have nothing else to do,
that's ALL i do. fair enough on the days that i start work at 8pm or 10pm
and then work until 3am or 5am.... but on the other days? same fucking
shit. i sit up (and sometimes drink a fair bit (like tonite)) til 2am
or so, and then STILL sleep in til midday.
here you to, lets counteract all those positive, motivated "i
used to be depressed and now i'm battling with my depression/eating disorder"
camgirls and their journals, and here is a journal from a regular girl,
who doesn't have the self discipline to starve herself/make herself throw
up, and can't be fucking assed to be depressed. yea, i get depressed sometimes,
but who the fuck can be bothered to mope around and wallow in self pity/starve
myself/inflict physical pain on myself. hell, i don't blame myself or
think hurting myself will show everyone in my life how FUCKING BAD they
have been treating me. fuck that. i like food, i like eating and feeling
full. i like sleeping and i prefer to lay on the couch when i feel sad,
or watch tv/movies/buffy and live in a fantasy land when i feel like shit.
hell, i like to sleep becoz i have awesome dreams and sometimes i look
forward to sleeping/dreaming rather than being awake.
i've had more than my share of emotionally problematic friends. sure,
they are the best friends to have... WHEN they are in a good mood. COME
ON, you know the girls. its the ones with the eating disorders or manic
depressives. when you catch them on a good day they are full of fucking
energy and they are more than willing to go out and party all night long,
take excessive amounts of drugs, and then pig out with you on all sorts
of food the next day..... only then they go and throw up, starve themselves
the next week, cut themselves and stay in their room for the next week
til the next weekend when they come and do it all over again. hell i spent
many a sunday a few years ago with a bottle of cheap champagne in the
bath tub with my friend, soaking wet coz she's turned on the shower to
try to wash away the blood which will flow when she cuts her wrists. in
our horribly drunken state, coming down from whatever drugs we have done
the night before, crying, pouring out our souls (or mainly, me listening
to how her parents fucked her up by naming her after their stillborn first
daughter, and how by starving herself she is showing them..... what, i'll
never know.) maybe girls like her, need girls like me. friends who aren't
depressed or suicidal or anything like that. i tried to be as normal as
i could around her. i would eat regular meals even when i felt like a
bloated pig and felt like skipping a meal, just to prove to her that eating
food isn't evil. i swear, i feel abnormal becoz i don't have a history
of eating disorders, depression, suicide attempts etc. i read "Prozac
Nation" the other month, and FUCKING HELL, Elizabeth Wurtzel is the
biggest, whiniest bitch. GET OVER YOURSELF. i know i'll never understand
how it feels to be depressed. i don't suffer from it. and i do accept
it as a valid illness, but BECOZ i'll never understand (coz i never suffer
from it) then i will never be able to not think- you're a fucking hypocondriac
who whines a shitload. get over yourself, stop hurting the peopel around
you. wake up to yourself and start seeing what you have around you. no
matter how depressed i get, i can't take it out on myself physically or
my loved ones (to a degree).
oih fuck this is getting into a huge drunken ramble. buffy is on. only episode 8 (which i've seen. i've downloaded up to episode 17, but hell i love buffy so i'll watch it again) so yes, i'll go now. oh i forgot to say, rhiannon has said she would like to come to australia and visit me. its by no means definate, but this is a HUGE step coz rhi has never been interested/eager to travel (that much) in the whole time i've known her (5 years- since '98). so the fact that she suggested the trip and is quite eager is absolutely fucking fantablous. i really really hope she decides to come. the main issue is the money. so if anyone out there would like to show their generous side and would like to help rhi out (thru donations) email her. she is the person i've known for the longest and liked the most from the internet. the fact that we're on opposide sides of the world is meaningless. we've had some great times chatting, with cams and without. i often dream about going over to the states to visit her- but it will definately not be happening til i graduate from uni. however rhi will be graduating middle of this year, and she wants to come to oz! yay!!!! wheee!!!!! so chip in if you feel generous.
ok off to buffy.
11.04.03
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oh my fuck, could i possibly have any more respect for joss whedon and
could i be in love with buffy any more? i didn't think so, but last night
as i dug out season 2 and watched the first episode, When She Was Bad.
During a scene willow and xander talk about going to the bronze to see
a band, Cibo Matto. Anyways, come to the bronze scene and the camera pans
past the band. i'm going woah, these guys are awesome, and the 2 japanese
girls are so funky and cool (even for 1997), and then it pans past a guy/guitarist
in the band. i'm like, woah he's really hot and kinda... um... looks like.....
uh.... no it couldn't be. pause the dvd and do some research and well,
hello there! it IS sean lennon- son of john lennon- in a buffy episode.
fuck i almost die from my absolute love for buffy.
So i poked around on some Cibo
Matto websites and wow, i love these guys. downloaded a handful of
there songs and they are great. i did remember reading an article years
ago saying how sean was taking after his father by dating a japanese artist/musican,
who's older than him by a number of years and her name was Yuko. the similarities
to Yoko were quite a few. and that's where they met- through the band.
sean is now dating bijour phillips, but ahhh all the pieces fall together
nicely now.
something is seriously wrong with me. i am sleeping way too much. like almost 12 hours. i went to bed about 1am (but listened to the radio for a bit and heard axel on 4ZZZ- i sent him an sms, and i got a mention on radio!!! HEHE) but i just couldn't get out of bed until midday, when i forced myself. i could have very easily slept away the whole day, however i feel too guilty. blah. what is wrong with me? so lazy and larthargic all the time.
10.04.03
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was spose to wake up at 7am this morning for my 9am lecture. but i felt so rotten that i switched off the alarm and decided to skip it. however, steve was waiting for me to get up, so he knew when to get up for work. i didn't know this. so at 10:45am he wakes me up in a panic. this was the first time (i can remember) where his voice became part of my dream. its all too hazy to recall now, but steve calling out my name was part of my dream. then *bam* wake up to him actually calling my name.
managed to get the project proposal in just on time. i was up til 7am
tuesday nite and i think that's why i felt so shitty this morning- catching
up on sleep. but it feels so good to an assignemnt over with- i had a
few too many drinks last nite while watching buffy and relaxing. i'm been
cheating and downloading season 7 episodes, so now i'm up to date with
the US schedule. next week, episode 8 is being played here, but i've seen
up to 17- and my god, 17 (lies my parents told me) was so fucking great.
i got a little teary while watching 15, 16 and 17 last nite- partly too
much alcohol, and partly coz i know buffy's coming to an end. this obsession
of mine has really become kinda scary- my dreams regularly include buffy
characters or just the actors, and i'm talking really vivid dreams. mmm
spike/james marsters, you are so hot, you are so cool, why oh why are
you turning fourty two?
that's ok tho, i mean teresa
has a thing for older men, so why can't i? although it might help to be
obsessed with someone who lives in the same country as me..... meh, elle
just rang and she wants to go to the city, so i said i'd come and bum
around with her for a bit before my class this afternoon. so that would
mean getting off the computer. damn :(
i really will put up the show-n-tell pics soon. til then, you can see them all over at team-plastique.com only just a little bit smaller in size.
06.04.03
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ok, show and tell was awesome! the team did an outstanding job of decorating upstairs of the jubilee. elle came over and we got ready. she joined me in the army wear (thanks to lars and his authentic norwegian army gear). i had to meet up with someone at the RG before hand, which meant walking thru the valley in crazy army get up while carrying this huge, oversized water canon. hehe elle was cringing, but i thought it was kinda funny. as soon as we arrived at the jube and did the rounds and said hello, a photographer from Scene magazine pounced on us and asked us to pose with the canon (ok, ok more like we begged him, but whatever). we made it just in time for 2 for 1 drinks, so the evilness began. there were loads of people there, and elle was certainly popular with the lads (hehe). we had a few sleazy guys latch on to us for a while, but we managed to lose them and elle found herself on the couch squished between a couple of nice guys, including this hot punk/goth boy.
toydeath were awesome- their costumes were fab and their music is so bloody impressive. who would have thought toys could make such good music. you can download some of their music from their site. i would definatley recommend that you do.
i tried to make some stuff in the invention room, but ended up just pulling apart a tape. then i ended up with duct tape and wrapped everyone's arms together. elle ran around for hours with her wrists tied up. hehe she was a mess. ahhhh i wish i had taken photos of her.
definately the highlight of my night was the healthy diet pyramid dancers. michael was dressed up as fats and oils with a hideously, bright parachute jacket. breads wore a bakers delight hat (rachel's old work), and weetbix logo on his shirt. dairy was equipped with a can of whipped cream which ended up everywhere. it was so much fun dancing to such horrid 80's tracks- everybody dance now and the final countdown (which i had burnt for kirsty to use). and i've turned kirsty into a huge t.A.T.u fan- so she played "all the things she said" which (at this point i was really wasted) i danced my heart out to.
elle left about 2:30 i think (after having a bit of a vomit and a nap on the couch). i should have left then, but i was having heaps of fun- but feeling totally wasted. i spoke to toydeath for a while, and ran around like crazy.... then things start to get real hazy. suddenly, i felt really really fucked. i don't know if i even said goodbye to anyone, but i remember walking down the stairs hardly able to see them. i hailed a taxi, almost forgot the water canon til the taxi driver reminded me, stumbled inside.... i remember talking to steve for a few seconds and that's it. blackness. i'm sure it was about 4am that i got home. steve woke me up at 11am the next morning with my mum on the phone but i still had totally off my tits. i slept for the rest of the day, getting up occasionally only to feel so sick. sicker than i've ever felt. steve got home that evening and i forced down a piece of toast. by 9pm i still felt really woozy, but managed to go to work. i was tired, and really out of it, but felt better after i had some food. i don't konw what the deal was, elle felt absolutely shit house as well. but she did vomit and i think it could have been just too much alcohol (as she's not a big drinker) but i know i've had nights where i've drunk more and never felt this bad the next day. a few ppl have said i may have gotten my drink spiked- but i don't know how. i guess it only takes a second to slip something in a drink. but it just hit so suddenly. one minute i was just drunk, the next i was FARKED. and i don't remember talking to steve for much more then a few seconds, but sposedly i was talking and i showered and everything. i don't remember a thing.
anyway, got to do a project proposal for Project Management by wednesday. eeeek. photos from friday night will be up in the next few days.
02.04.03
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happy 1 year 5month anniversary baby! oops i think its past midnite now. oh well, happy 1 year 5month 1 day anniversary. steve thinks i'm stupid for celebrating every month. but hell, this is the longest i've ever been in a relationship, so every month is a new world record for me.
wow, my mum was certainly a hit. but sammie, i don't think i look like her when she was my age.
well, the uni work is piling on, yet i still can't find motivation. i just watched the ring 2 instead of doing something... anything. and thursday i'm at uni from 9am-8pm with the afternoon off. i wanted to go to a few second hand stores during my break to look for a few things for friday nite, 'Show & Tell'. Was thinking of taking along steve's spiderman water canon, so in the theme of war and army, i'm wearing my big boots, cargo mini and i just need a top- preferably army print or something. i will definately be taking along the camera for pics of the evening.
sleep now....will update properly soon.
01.04.03
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was thinking of doing something stupid for april fools day, but i've been busy madly downloading things to fill up my monthly net limit before the end of the month and doing up my mum's 50th birthday invitation. first- i'm so pissed off. i've downloaded 2 buffy episodes (from season 7) and they've both come through as only audio. damn avi files. i've downloaded "all codecs" from kazaa both nothing works. so here i am listening to the audio of buffy episodes while going thru screen caps. sad, aren't i? hehe its the first monday night i've been home for in a while. southpark, sex & the city, buffy= such a great night of viewing.
second- my mum sent to heaps of photos so i would have some material to work with when doing up her bday invites. anyway, this one photo of her when she was 19 and a bridesmaid is absolutely gorgeous. i wish i took after her more. she's got such big pretty eyes, bright blue... i got dad's brown eyes. i don't know who's eye shape i have tho. anyway, here's the pic.
well its late, and i have uni work to do before i sleep. pinch and a punch for the first of the month.