holy crap, i just added up the days and its day 70!!! 10 weeks!!!

I have used the silicon gel sheets, Cica-care, for a whole month (31 days) and I'm just taking a bit of a break as my skin around my nipples sometimes gets a bit sore from constantly taping and uptaping and taping again. The micro-pore tape is super duper sticky and pulling it off twice a day and reapplying it straight away is slightly irritating my skin. Not irritating but sometimes it feels like I'm ripping off a layer of skin with the tape. Luckily its not on the nipples or the scars, but just the skin around it.

I've been using Rosehip Oil and vitamin E oil on my scars in the meantime, but after this week I'll probably start up the second lot of silicon gel sheets.

Its hard to see a difference from day to day but they have definitely dropped to a more natural shape. Of course they are still uber perky and there is no way I could ever hold a pencil under them again hehehe.

I finally got the surgeon's before and after photos and wow, it was horrible. The befores I mean. SOOOO not flattering. But I got the fullbody before and the fullbody after photo and put them on top of each other in photoshop and tried to resize them to match. I lined up a few moles on my chest and shoulder and then faded one picture out and the other picture in and the difference is amazing. I still wish I had lost a bit more on my bum/hips but oh well. Can't complain.

Check out the full body comparison animated picture. I can't believe I'm showing off this horrible before photo, but at least I dont look like that anymore.

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Posted by reanon to Breast Reduction Journal at 8/28/2006 08:55:00 PM

someone asked why the Quit Smoking counter is down...does it mean I've started smoking again?

The good news, is no. I haven't started smoking again. It's been about 15 weeks since I gave up and no sign of starting up again, so I thought it was time to replace it with something else. I dont even crave a cigarette when I'm drinking, which was the final hurdle to get over. The new smoking laws, banning smoking from all indoor bars, pubs, anywhere food or drink is served, definitely makes it a hell of a lot easier.

Swapping one addiction for another, I have rediscovered my love of shopping. The fact that clothes fit so much better now, and that alot of my pants are seriously baggy, means I'm wanting to extend my wardrobe, but its starting to take a toll on my bank account. Its so much easier to spend all your money when you don't have something in the immediate future to save for. :( I keep telling myself I'll pull in the reins next week/next month etc.... drinking, eating out, shopping.... argh! maybe I should just take up smoking again to replace the other vices- smoking rollies was a shitload cheaper.

I bought a few things on ebay too.... dvd, bag and a top. I'm sort of regretting the purchase of the top though. I have bought a few clothes on ebay before and not all have fit that well, and looked that great in person. I really need to nip this shopping addiction in the butt before I end up buying a whole bunch of crap from ebay... which I've done before!

OOOH there was this other top I bid on the other week and won. No one else had bid on it so I got it for the starting bid of $0.99. The seller had wanted to sell the top in the photo plus more items of clothing... a mystery box. And her description had said when bidding passed $15 she would throw in a gift, when it passed $30 there would be another gift etc. So I'm guessing she was expected quite a few more bids. I didn't really want anything else except the one top in the photo..... I sent her a couple of messages before bidding, but no response. I won the bid... no response. I kept sending messages every few days AND STILL NO RESPONSE!!!!! I am so pissed off. I'm sure she just doesn't want to sell the item because it didn't get to a price she was happy with, but fucking hell. HOW DODGY! I am so tempted to leave negative feedback and tarnish her 100% positive feedback record. I guess there's not much I can really do though. I've emailed and emailed and emailed.... started off nice and got more and more stern as the days ticked by. But not a single response. ergh.

you know its going to be a good day if....
On the way to work your ipod, with more than 3000 songs, plays two Tegan & Sara songs in a row while on random shuffle.


i love fridays! <3

Houmam's 27th Birthday	Progressive Dinner

I've started taking my camera out with me again and I've got pics from houmam's 27th birthday dinner last saturday night and a social club Progressive dinner last night.
It was actually really fun... I've never been on a progressive dinner before. We started off at a turkish restaurant for entree, then wandered down the road to the Plough Inn for dinner and then back to Denim Co for dessert. It was good for a large group because we all ended up sitting beside different people each time.

The night continued on for hours.. thankfully today was a public holiday (Ekka show holiday). I really seem to be losing my ability to hold my alcohol, as I turned into an emotional mess by the end of the night, instigating unnecessary arguements with my sober boyfriend who patiently listens to me rant and rave about utter crap before passing out. Truly a tragic mess, no doubt snoring in my drunken slumber. I dont think I would be able to put up with me, but I'm both grateful and embarassed that he does.

The bar we were at for the end of the night offered infused vodkas that they had prepared themselves. Redskins, Spearmint leaves and Musk stick infused vodka- *DROOLS* The bartender said he would fill the empty bottle about 1/4 full of loosely packed Redskins and then top it up with vodka... two days later! KA-BLAMO! yummy delicious candy infused vodka!

I'm going to push that we attempt this delicious, sugary, alcoholic treat at work for an upcoming friday night drinks.

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My good friend Dan has moved in downstairs with his sister, after the other two flatmates had to move out. It was sad to see them go, but I'm so thrilled to have such a good friend downstairs. It seems strange talking about a housewarming since I've been in this place now for over 3 years, but we should be having one in the next few weeks! Part-tay!

I've been an absolute shop-a-holic lately, now that I'm finally fitting into so many clothes and looking good in them! I bought my first two bras last week- 12C and teeny tiny skinny straps, totally sexy, normal bras! I almost cried while trying on all these bras and clothes and finding that they all fit! And the little support that these bras offer is more than enough for what my boobs need. Yay for perky boobs that don't need granny bras to hold them up. I can't wait until summer time - strappy tops, backless tops, plunging necklines ahoy!

wow I can't believe its day 50 since my surgeries. Every single day I'm so glad I did this. Every day I love my new, smaller breasts more and more.

Tonight, after a shower, I tried out some skimpy tops and bikini tops and I wanted to cry with joy. My boobs just look so damn good- the bikini top doesn't need to be tied up so tight it cuts into me, just to hold the big ol' boobs up. The bikini top doesn't need to do anything but lightly cover- my perky boobs hold themselves up!

I also tried on a backless top that once belonged to my sister- I don't know why I kept it for all this time... except as a reminder of what I wanted. It was the holy grail. To be able to wear a backless top with NO BRA- wow I only dreamed of that time... but now I can! God, it feels so good.

I have been using the Cica care silicon gel sheet scar treatment for 2 weeks now, and my scars are looking fantastic. However, I don't know if its the silicon gel or if its just my body healing, but I will keep using the silicon gel for the recommended 2-4 months just in case. Before I started using these gel sheets, I was rubbing Vitamin E oil onto my scars every night and I honestly believed that was helping them fade. But the scars have continued to fade and whether its the gel, or just time and my own body, I'll keep using every method I can.

I've taken some photos, but I do feel the camera makes the scars stand out more. The camera also seems to emphasise the difference in the size of my breasts. No one has perfectly matching breasts, and although I had not really noticed, before the operation my left was alot saggier and bigger than the right. Now, post-op my left is still slightly bigger than my right. But that's ok with me. Its not as noticeable in person and that's all that matters.

Check out some photos from day 45- close up of the scars, both boobs, and a shot of boobs with my now smaller love handles.
I also took photos from day 36 and didn't mention it in my blog, so you may not have seen them.

My hips and thighs are also healing well. They still feel a little sore at times, and if I press on my outer thighs, inner thighs or love handle area it still feels like a bit of a bruise. I can also feel a bit of hardening under the puncture points- which is scar tissue I believe. But I'm trying to keep up the massaging every other day, which will hopefully soften the scar tissue sooner rather than later.

Its hard to measure the difference in size before and after the surgery, and often I look at my thighs and think there is not a huge difference. However every single pair of pants fits so much better now. In fact a number of jeans/pants are bagging so much around the inner thigh and the back of my thighs/under my bum. And of course I dont get that horrible muffin top (the bulging of fat over the top of hipster pants) anymore.
My favourite pair of dark jeans are almost bordering on 'too big' which makes me sad. But I will keep wearing them, even though they are no long slim fitting. Another pair of light colored jeans which are very stretchy, now bag and bulge at the inner thigh. Obviously my inner thigh fat had stretched the jeans so much, they are permanently like that now. And now I have no inner thigh to fill them out, YIPEE!

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Posted by reanon to Breast Reduction Journal at 8/08/2006 09:48:00 PM

ergh i'm so disappointed. I bought a bottle of wine a few weeks ago and didn't drink it, so it has been sitting on my kitchen bench, tempting me to drink it every time I walk past. But I held off. I waited, I was saving it for a special occasion or for a night when I really craved wine.
Tonight was that night. Cindy is out of town and I came home after a great movie and hanging out session with friends and it suddently felt time to crack open the bottle while I cooked some food and washed up.

Anyway, the wine is pretty darn nasty. Its not a nice drop at all although it was a $20 bottle and I usually only buy $10-12 bottles. meh I wish I knew more about red wine so I could pick a decent wine in the future.

The film I went and saw was An Inconvenient Truth - the documentary about Al Gore's mission to make the global warming issue more recognised around the world. It was amazing. Depressing and bleak, but it achieves its goal of education and for that, it is brilliant. If there is one thing you do this year, make sure you at least see this film. If you don't feel compelled to do take some action after watching it, then so be it, but at least give it a chance and watch!
Check out the website, the imdb site and the trailer.