The net just doesn't really appeal to me much anymore, and my interest in my website/blog is failing. But every-so-often my website redeems itself by providing me with wanted exposure and opportunities that might not have otherwise presented themselves. And that makes it all worth while!

I've been interviewed live on a british radio station, been in a dozen newspaper and magazines articles (both australia and international), and my notoriety amongst a select crowd of bloggers/camgirls/net geeks is responsible for scoring me this fabulous job I am currently in.
The latest crazy thing to happen as a result of my blog, is being contacted by the guy who runs a local music website, RawAudio.net

"Raw Audio (formerley Bandidoz Radio) is Brisbane's only Internet Radio and TV Station, and is dedicated to playing great music from Brisbane, the Sunshine Coast and the Gold Coast!"

I've been asked if I wanted to film/interview some local bands... And as luck would have it, although I don't own a video camera, my sister had left her mini dv camcorder (JVC GR-D70) at my place when she moved out (OVER A YEAR AGO). I have meant to get it out and use it, but never gotten around to it.

So I said I was interested and he asked if I was available this friday (now today) to film a local jazz/blues band. I said I was.

However, my sister had just left me the cam and a bunch of cables in the camera bag, but no installation cd and no firewire cable. Thank goodness for my iBook- I got around the no cd issue. But still needed a firewire cable. Eventually I tracked one down at work and we were right to get footage OFF the camera, onto the computer.

I sat up late last night capturing old footage on my dv cam tapes left over from my uni days. Hilarious drunken footage from early 2002. We all look sooooo young and different. oh man, good times!
Then today (friday) I tried to test it and record something (which I hadn't done up until now - I mean I was so busy worrying about getting footage off the damn thing, I hadn't even thought to check if it WOULD record)- and guess what? IT WASN'T WORKING!!!!

The screen was just blank. The lens cap warning flashed, even after I had taken the lens cap off. I started stressing. After a quick google search David found out that it was quite a common problem with JVC DV-Cams in the past couple of years. JVC knows about this problem with the software and is fixing it for owners of these camcorders.

I phoned up the australian JVC customer service line and they said they could fix it and gave me the details of the 2 local JVC repair shops. Both out in the middle of the 'burbs. I called them both and both are only open DURING the week (not weekends). One of them closes at 4.30pm every day, the other at 5pm, but is open Tuesday and Thursday nights til 7pm.

And they both have a bit of backlog so it would take about 10 working days to fix.

SOOOOOOO, there goes that idea. I will get it fixed and then will be able to film future gigs, but this one tonight is a bust. Of course the guy I've been dealing with is in London and therefore a different time zone. I have emailed him about my problem, but I don't know if he'll get the email in time, and even if he emails the band, I don't know if they will get the email in time.

I feel utterly horrible, although he had previously said not to stress (when I was having other issues with the cable), that he had told the band if its filmed then its filmed. If not, then not that big a problem. But I still feel really rotten.

David has been trying to track down a friend's camcorder, but I'm still stressed... And I've spent most of the day feeling sick to my stomach, for letting people down, while everyone has been reassuring me its not going to be the end of the world and that surely they will understand. Now I feel ready to just pass out. I dont know why I get so worked up and emotional over shit and if I could just turn off these sometimes irrationally insane feelings I would, BUT I just dont seem to be able to.

Stress is a killer. I feel so worn out.

We did grocery shopping early this morning and then cindy headed out for the day, so i put on Lost.... but then I got hungry. There's nothing better or worse then a freshly filled fridge FULL of food. I made some lunch and then grabbed the block of brie we had bought and sat on the couch... next thing you know, the block is half the size it was. WTF where did it go? damn, eating in front of the tv is bad because i'm not watching what I'm doing. Soft cheese is my weakness and its just so damn tasty.
Of course now I feel guilty as hell, and actually a bit sick. Brie binge = bloaty badness.

After the fantastic Lost episode the other week, which was 2x15 Maternity Leave, I had high hopes for this next episode. PFFFFT those hopes were crushed. it wasn't a BAD episode... how could a Lost episode be? But for fucks sake, NO MORE FLASHBACKS! argh! lets focus on the island and the others/dharma initiative, PLEASE!

the lip stud is gone... its out, but I occasionall push the stud through the hole... just to keep it from closing up. just IN CASE....

i'm thinking of taking my lip stud out... not because I am sick of it, I still love it to death but I'm really worried about gum recession.

I know I tend to freak myself out over little things, especially if teeth related (ask Houmam, a few months ago I freaked out about bottled water - I read that the generation growing up on bottled water may result in teeth problems due to the lack of fluoride, and suddenly I freaked out because I realized I mostly drank filtered/purified water at work and at the gym, and rarely any tap water.
"If bottled water is your main source of drinking water, you could be missing the decay-preventive benefits of fluoride," the ADA says. "

Anyway he laughed at irrational fears and I got over it. But I am mortified of irreversable decay and damage to my teeth. These fears has resulted in my compulsive brushing and flossing this past year. I also rinse with a special weekly fluoride mouthwash (and secretly use it more than the prescribed weekly usage)

I have regular dreams about my teeth becoming loose, and I have these same dreams where my jaw gets locked and I can't move it- and my bottom jaw and teeth are pushing hard against my top teeth. In the dream I can't stop the pushing and I'm deathly afraid I'm going to push so hard that my teeth loosen and fall out. I always wake up in a bit of a panic, and my jaw hurts, so I assume in my sleep I really am tensing up and locking my jaw.

Anyway gum recession has always been on my mind, but more so lately. I went and googled, and found a gazillion articles about the IRREVERSABLE damage a lip/labret piercing can do on your gums. The gum has definitely been worn down a bit on my bottom two middle teeth- I can see it. And now I'm worried if I keep the piercing in, it will only make it worse. The absolute worse case scenario, that COULD happen, is it wears the gum down so far and exposes some of the roots and can cause teeth sensivity, increase your cases of decay in those areas, and could lead to teeth loosening!!!!!

*CUE MASSIVE FREAK OUT*

If I had the money I would totally invest in expensive dentistry, and would even get veneers. IF I had the money. I wonder how many people do lose their teeth before they are 50?
I am so scared of losing teeth at an early age - I mean once you're 60 plus, fair enough. But can you imagine being 30? What if you're single and you meet someone and you take them home for the night and then you have to TAKE OUR YOUR TEETH?!?!! ARGH !!!!! even just losing ONE tooth and have a fake tooth thing? oh god, I'm having crazy heart palpitations just thinking about it.

So it shouldn't be a hard decision, right? Just take out the stud and be done with it. But then vanity kicks in - I love the piercing and I've had it for so long. In my eyes, my face looks so plain without it. :( *sigh*

aaron tagged me to do a questionnaire the other week. better late than never!!

Four jobs I have had

1. Retail shop girl at Dymocks bookstore
2. Telemarketer at ITT Communications
3. Bartender/waitress at Velvet Cigar
4. Traffic at Dark Blue Sea (current)


Four movies I can watch over and over

1. Labyrinth
2. Dazed & Confused
3. Help (beatles movie)
4. Zoolander


Four places I have lived

1. Bundaberg
2. Surin, Thailand
3. Taringa
4. New Farm


Four TV shows I love

1. Buffy
2. Scrubs
3. Entourage
4. Arrested Development


Four places I've vacationed

1. Sydney
2. Thailand
3. Stradbroke Island
4. Gold Coast


Four of my favorite dishes

1. Som Tum
2. Panang Curry
3. Seafood Laksa
4. Grilled Salmon


Four sites I visit daily

1. Myspace
2. Livejournal
3. Oh No They Didnt
4. Hotmail


Four places I would rather be right now

1. In bed
2. In 'his' bed
3. Thailand
4. At home with my mum


Four Three people I am tagging

1. Kristy
2. Rhiannon
3. Dan
I would say Rach or Heather... i guess you could put it in your lj's. *shrugs* I just wanted to do this quiz out of boredom/procrastination. Our annual reviews for work are due tomorrow and of course its 10pm and I haven't done it yet. ARGH! its university assignments and exam time all over again. I leave everything to the last minute. And I only got home a little while ago from delicious Indian dinner for David's sisters birthday. went and saw the Date Movie earlier in the evening. It was funny but not as good as I expected. I think i'll just be downloading Scary Movie 4 which is out soon.

holy crapsticks batman, its 4.24am. this is the latest i've been up in soooo long. usually i'm tucked into bed by midnight or so, but tonight we partied on with my flatmates and the rest of the band after the douglas fir gig. even went backstage (tho have been there before) and took some silly pics ON the stage that i will share later on. saw EISLEY at an instore gig today and i have fallen in love with their music all over again. plus i just love their whole family bond- and wish more than anything that i too had such a close knit family.
man its not long til the sun rises, tho its not summer anymore, so its probably not til about 6am. fark my eyes are blurring. the concert tonight was HOT!!!! repeat offender went off, elation were pretty funky, and douglas fir rocked!!! although their music may not be my usual cup of tea, they are definitely are great live music act and they are extremely tight! awesome fucking night. i wish it wasn't so late erghhhhhhhhhhh

can someone tell me if the pop up has gone? i got rid of the thing I believed was causing the pop up coz everyone is such a bloody whinger. i have pop up blockers on all my computers, so i never get the pop up... so i dont know if its gone or not!

My flatmate's band, Douglas Fir has their Brisbane EP launch next saturday, 18th March at the Zoo.

Douglas Fir are heading off to the states at the end of the month for 2 whole months of gigs in California and New York- and they keep booking more and more shows. They are also going back to the states in July for the Vans Warped Tour.

Although they have struggled to find a place for their music here in Australia, the States is absolutely loving their sound. "Think funk meets rock, with a dash of pop." And I wouldnt be surprised if they do really well........

So if you live in Brisbane, come and see them now BEFORE they reach super stardom, so you can say "yea, i knew them back in the day!"

Plus I'll be there :) And if that isn't reason enough to go, well.... MEH!

Tickets are only $11.50. You can either get them on the door or from the usual ticket venues. If I know you, I can hook you up with tickets.

If you live in Sydney or Melbourne, don't fear, you haven't been forgotten.

Melbourne launch: March 9th (ie TONIGHT!!!)
8pm, The Prince Band Room

Sydney launch: March 24th
8pm, Cat & Fiddle, Balmain

Check out their myspace for songs and US tour dates.

middle of the afternoon and i'm drunk! argh! it feels so wrong


so the couch is inside and all set up - how? well my flatmate and his bandmate, (adam and clinton), they got all 4 pieces INSIDE thru the DOOR!!!!!! those delivery guys were SHIT. we removed the door stop and that gave us an extra inch but they just squeezed it thru.

yay! i knew things would work out. fuck my lounge suite is awesome. everyone to my house for a movie night! i can fit at least 6 people comfy, definitely 8 squished!

well fuck, things just aren't going as planned, now are they? I like organisation, I like being in charge. I like plans, and I love things going to plan.

SO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? I hate not being in control.

I've been sitting in the middle of my partially empty lounge room crying for the past hour. I just feel so helpless and alone and I dont know what to do.

The plan was: I'd go to work. The couch delivery people would call an hour before arriving. I'd head home, let them in, marvel at the beauty of my new couch and then head back to work for a fun friday. Fridays are the best and I look forward to them alllll week. Pub lunch, drinks after work.
But instead the call before I even leave for work saying they are on their way. Cool, great, I'll just wait and go into work aftewards. They arrive, yay. But then we realize the doorway is really narrow and they don't think they can get the corner pieces in. Or the end withthe recliner. or the end with the chaise. They do manage to get the one little middle piece in. Yay. 1 in, only 4 pieces to go.

The other option is to take it down the side, around the back, through the bottom unit and up the stairs. Which will be a total pain in the ass, getting it up the stairs etc, but at least the stair well is wider than the doorway (what sucks is the door opens into a little hallway... they really didn't plan this unit very well).

Of course, the side we have access too has a bunch of water heaters down the narrow side so no, it wouldn't fit down there.

Next option- take it down the OTHER side of the building.... problem- the gate is locked (to keep the prostitutes out, and stop them from taking clients down the back of our unit and shagging them in the yard- I KID YOU NOT, that's what used to happen. The ladies of the night frequent our street corner, and before this unit block had the security gate on the garage and the locked side gates, the girls would take people down the back of our unit. EWWWWW)

So yea, gate is locked. Who has a key? hmmm the woman who owns the unit next to me- but she has gone to work. And who else? The real estate? OH NO, that would make too much sense. No, instead the owner of MY unit has a key. But of course he works, is busy, and ages away.

The delivery guys are getting antsy coz they have other deliveries to make. So one suggested taking OFF the front door. That would give us the few extra inches to get the pieces inside. YAY! He starts loosening the screws, BUT ONE SCREW will not come loose. He doesn't have the right screwdriver, its not long enough to get in there, but he keeps trying. He gets out a hammer and tries hitting some stuff. He gets out a wrench and tries that. But nothing will make that screw come loose. No go!

So that's it. There's nothing more these guys can do, and they can't be fucked to try anything else. They have to go, so I sign the delivery form and off they go.

My flatmate downstairs, Adam has been kind enough to get up after a really late gig last night, so he had been out with us, trying to work out a way. The delivery guys leave and Adam and I talk some more. I call the owner and he tells me he can come over to unlock the gate after lunch some time. I have no tools here so we can't try and get the door off.

I call work and tell them I won't be in, and then I end up on the floor crying to myself. I know I'm being stupid, it'll work out eventually. But I just felt so stupid, buying a couch that doesn't even fit in my front door. Adam has gone to sleep off his late night some more, so its just me.I stand out in the garage looking at these 4 pieces of couch that wont fit in and I can't do anything. I can't move them, although I try. Maybe the delivery guys didn't try it this way - so I pull and groan and slide the piece over to the front door, but it wont go through.

Damn

Its rainy and grey and cold, I'm all alone, day time tv SUCKS. And i'm missing out on a friday at work. I'm wasting a holiday- I've been trying to save them up because i'll need to take a fair bit of time off for the breast reduction thing. So I dont want to waste a day of holidays, ESPECIALLY not a friday. The best day of the week. I'm missing out on our ritual pub lunch. I want to be able to talk to people, ask their opinions. Vent my stress. I rang the boy and had a cry and he calmed me down a little. I want to be at work because being around everyone always makes me feel better. I need people!

I'm thinking of going down to the bottle shop and buying some alcohol and drinking my frustrations away. Since the day is a waste anyway, I might as well really waste it.

The one little piece of lounge is sitting there, looking so beautiful and comfortable and new. But its just sitting there ALONE. Its so sad.

My blue couch has been sold, and the other little couch plus some random little tables are hopefully going this weekend. My new lounge is finally arriving tomorrow morning. The place looks so strange, half empty. But when its all rearranged, it will be so fucking awesome. When mum comes down end of next month we'll get rid of the old crusty tv table and get a sexy new one.

All this has made me want to clear out some other random stuff. I'm finally returning a bunch of things (books, dvds etc) I borrowed from people and just forgot about. I'm itching to get rid of some old clothes that have been sitting in bags in my cupboard just WAITING for me to get motivation to go to the markets again. I think I'm going to give up on that idea and just donate them to a charity. I would love to sell them on ebay, but its just too much hassle and CAN YOU BELIEVE they charge you a final value fee? wtf is that about. Ebay is such a rip!

I did cave and am going to sell a few things on there: The first is the Jesus Super Hero figurine. It was the first item Steve and I bought for this new unit when we moved in. Its hilarious and always makes me laugh, but I need to the extra hook space for my new art piece coming soon.

Anyway you know you want this funny, kitsch figure that graced my walls for years. Its in great condition. Never out of the box. Never in sunlight so its not faded or anything. CHECK IT OUT!

I saw Rent last night at the cinema. It was a dream come true to finally see the musical I have obsessed over for 7 plus years - not just imagining it in my mind! Most of the others who saw it with me didn't like it. Its a typical musical made into a film- They haven't made it into a movie, they have just filmed the actors. It still feels like a musical/stage performance. But I liked that.

I cried so much. From about half way through til the end, I had tears streaming down my face, and my bottom lip would quiver. I honestly thought I would let out a loud sob in a few places. I had some random girl beside me, so I kept it in, holding my breath. It was so beautiful to see it on the big screen. *sigh* I can die happy now.