Things I wish I could have told people who are/were in my life if I had the courage/was still in touch:

I miss you but you barely seem to notice I'm not around.

I always hated sharing you with them.

Did I somehow fool myself into thinking we were closer than we actually were?

I always wonder if I hadn't been so indecisive, would you have chosen me instead of her?

Your absence is hardly noticeable to me.

I didn't have the courage to be with you while we were both so inexperienced. I always regretted that and I think I always will.

I'm still surprised how easy it was to say goodbye to you.

I wish your first time had been with me and I was so jealous it wasn't.

I couldn't stay and watch you slowly kill yourself, so I pushed you away.

I never regretted what I did, because you didn't deserve him. But I still strangely missed your friendship.

I think you were sneaky and conniving and I hated that everyone else was so blind to your horrible personality.

I wondered 'what if' for so long, I wonder if you ever felt the same way?

I wish you would make half the effort that I do.

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