i can dream
I wish I could experience someone else's dreams to know what they experience. Alot of people speak about their dreams in a way that makes them seem really vivid. Mine are definately very real seeming, but its wierd. I think I dream in Sepia/black and white. Everything is very muted. Its hard to tell of course, because the more I try to remember my dreams, the more blurry they become. But i don't dream in vivid colours, not like real life. I used to have the same dreams alot.
There was this one bad dream I used to have. I guess its the closest thing to a nightmare. Its so hard to remember it though, its not like anything really happened, it was more just a horrible feeling. There was definately a robot or something in the dream. But this feeling- it was this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I have relived that feeling a few times while awake too.
I don't smoke pot anymore because it makes me paranoid, but once back in high school I was home alone, got stoned and then had a shower. The repetitive sounds of the water pouring on my heads brought on that same feeling again. It was like the sound of the water got louder and louder and built up more and more and then it would just cut out and I would kinda get more alert all of a sudden. THen it would happen again. It pretty much happens every time I get stoned now. I don't like it, because it reminds me of how I felt in that bad dream.
I used to have another dream all the time. I was back in the house I lived in til I was 13. It was a old style queenslander house, with really high ceilings. The light switch in my room was a really big heavy switch. In my dreams something the light switch would be a pull switch like my best friend had in her house- pull the cord once to turn it on, pull it again to turn it off. I don't remember really what I was doing in my house, I guess I was doing different things every dream but everytime I'd go into my room I'd turn on the light and it would be this really really dull light. I could barely see. My eyes would get heavy and I would get so frustrated that I couldn't see.
I guess the obvious meaning was my frustration with my own eye sight problems. I started wearing glasses in the last couple of years living in that house. Strangely I haven't had that dream again since having laser surgery and fixing my eyesight.
Anyway the reason I started thinking about dreams is I had another vivid dream last night. Sexual. About someone I don't feel sexually about. What the hell is that about? How often are other people's dreams sexual? Because mine are ALOT! Seriously my dream-self is a right fucking slut- I have sex ALOT in my dreams. Or something its just leading up to sex.
I wonder if it means anything... don't they say dreams are your minds way of processing your day to day life? What does that mean? That I want to shag everyone I know? hahahah maybe I have some fucked up issues about sex, that my mind is trying to work through while I sleep.
But yea, I wish I could experience someone else's dreams for once, to see how different or similar mine are. In my dreams I know people are talking, but I don't really ever hear anything. Its almost like everyone is just communicating telepathically. And most times hardly anything really happens. Its just a big mish mash of feelings and touching and sights. I probably would be able to remember more if I tried to keep a dream diary. One day I might.
But seriously I love dreaming so much. Even when I have dreams about not so pleasant things- I've had dreams where I'm in a horror movie, and I know its not real and it won't hurt, but I'm still running and afraid of being cut, or hit or chopped into little bits. I have dreams about vampires all the time (obviously a consequence of watching too much buffy/angel), and I am scared of being bitten and turned. But even when these scary things happen, I still love dreaming. Part of me knows its a dream I guess.
Some people I know don't like sleeping because they don't enjoy their dreams at all. I can't imagine that.
There was this one bad dream I used to have. I guess its the closest thing to a nightmare. Its so hard to remember it though, its not like anything really happened, it was more just a horrible feeling. There was definately a robot or something in the dream. But this feeling- it was this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I have relived that feeling a few times while awake too.
I don't smoke pot anymore because it makes me paranoid, but once back in high school I was home alone, got stoned and then had a shower. The repetitive sounds of the water pouring on my heads brought on that same feeling again. It was like the sound of the water got louder and louder and built up more and more and then it would just cut out and I would kinda get more alert all of a sudden. THen it would happen again. It pretty much happens every time I get stoned now. I don't like it, because it reminds me of how I felt in that bad dream.
I used to have another dream all the time. I was back in the house I lived in til I was 13. It was a old style queenslander house, with really high ceilings. The light switch in my room was a really big heavy switch. In my dreams something the light switch would be a pull switch like my best friend had in her house- pull the cord once to turn it on, pull it again to turn it off. I don't remember really what I was doing in my house, I guess I was doing different things every dream but everytime I'd go into my room I'd turn on the light and it would be this really really dull light. I could barely see. My eyes would get heavy and I would get so frustrated that I couldn't see.
I guess the obvious meaning was my frustration with my own eye sight problems. I started wearing glasses in the last couple of years living in that house. Strangely I haven't had that dream again since having laser surgery and fixing my eyesight.
Anyway the reason I started thinking about dreams is I had another vivid dream last night. Sexual. About someone I don't feel sexually about. What the hell is that about? How often are other people's dreams sexual? Because mine are ALOT! Seriously my dream-self is a right fucking slut- I have sex ALOT in my dreams. Or something its just leading up to sex.
I wonder if it means anything... don't they say dreams are your minds way of processing your day to day life? What does that mean? That I want to shag everyone I know? hahahah maybe I have some fucked up issues about sex, that my mind is trying to work through while I sleep.
But yea, I wish I could experience someone else's dreams for once, to see how different or similar mine are. In my dreams I know people are talking, but I don't really ever hear anything. Its almost like everyone is just communicating telepathically. And most times hardly anything really happens. Its just a big mish mash of feelings and touching and sights. I probably would be able to remember more if I tried to keep a dream diary. One day I might.
But seriously I love dreaming so much. Even when I have dreams about not so pleasant things- I've had dreams where I'm in a horror movie, and I know its not real and it won't hurt, but I'm still running and afraid of being cut, or hit or chopped into little bits. I have dreams about vampires all the time (obviously a consequence of watching too much buffy/angel), and I am scared of being bitten and turned. But even when these scary things happen, I still love dreaming. Part of me knows its a dream I guess.
Some people I know don't like sleeping because they don't enjoy their dreams at all. I can't imagine that.
11 Comments:
At May 13, 2005 11:25 AM, Strongblade! said…
I do alot of dreaming too. I like to dream, since it's also a way to escape the doldrums of real life.
And you are not alone with your sex dreams. Generally I believe I have them because I've been single for over a decade...
The way you describe your creams. The muted, 'telepahtic' silent talking, the blurry recollection, I'm very similar. I rarely remember my dreams when i wake up.
At May 13, 2005 11:35 AM, Anonymous said…
I think everybody dreams about sex, whether they want to admit it or not.
Have you heard of lucid dreaming? It's a technique people use to tell themselves that they are in REM sleep; once they can master being "alert" during that stage they say they have the most vivid dreams and can remember everything when they wake up the next morning.
JR
At May 13, 2005 12:26 PM, reanon said…
yea i've heard of it and read some stuff about it before. interesting huh.
At May 13, 2005 1:01 PM, Capt Happy Pants said…
I had a real bad dream once that stays with me till now...
I was in the Army and was about to be sent to do peacekeeping, I dreamt that while I was on operation I shot a little kid and killed him it devestated me so much that I ended up killing myself in my dream, which is something I would never do...
This dream fucked me up for a few days afterwards because of the fact that I would never try to kill myself...
so if anyone else's dreams are like that one I don`t want them...
But rudey dreams I`ll have some of those
At May 13, 2005 2:14 PM, noderix said…
I hardly remember my dreams. I do remember little bits of the dream, like a face or a specific scene. If I am tired and have to wake up early I don't seem to dream, but if I am sleeping in I will. Everything seems dulled and focused on the scene at hand, where in life I tend to have a very wide picture of life and can get distracted by what’s happening in the background. I quickly forget the dream as the morning gets on.
As a kid my dreams were vivid. I used to have a favorite where I could float around just by knelling. But from memory even then my dreams had no real purpose in them.
In terms of sex, yes I dream of everything that leads to about foreplay, then I wake up!
At May 13, 2005 3:04 PM, Anonymous said…
You can teach yourself to remember your dreams. Lucid dreaming is a by product of teaching yourself dreaming techniques. Use a tape recorder or a pad near your bedside,the minute you wake up write down what you can remember. The more often you do that the more you find you can remember. Once your good at it you kind of reverse it,you go to sleep thinking about the dream you want to revisit,and evemtually you can train yourself to get there.
I dream in color and very lucidly. I have regular conversations in dreams and have often died. Remembering the red blood is how I know they are in color. I dont dream of sex a lot,but when I do it always very intense sex,and never with anyone I know.
I used to do a lot about exploring this stuff havent done any thing in a while tho.
Ruggedo
At May 13, 2005 3:53 PM, Anonymous said…
funny you should mention it, i dreamed that i porked my mum the other night. she was hot!
At May 13, 2005 9:23 PM, The Frat House said…
Do I smell a troll or a loser in the comment above? Hard to tell sometimes.
I haven't ever dreamed about sex. Pity...considering they say guys are supposed to think about it all the time (...no comment). I have odd abstract dreams sometimes ... coloured lines and patterns - it is fucked up because they're really scary for some reason. When you wake up you don't want to go back to sleep again.
Has anyone read 'The Sandman" graphic novel series about the King of Dreams...it was seriously awesome.
At May 14, 2005 6:40 AM, Laurence said…
Reanon, you are the closest anyone has come to describing some really bad dreams I used to experience.
They are not visual like normal dreams, but consist of a feeling of absolute dread and torment.
It is like I have been working on some intricate, complex problem for a vast amount of time, only to find I have made an error somewhere unknown. The only course of action is to start again, which is so unthinkable a burden, it destroys my sanity.
The feeling is just as you describe, the way it builds up slowly, insidiously, until it crashes in a terrifying crescendo.
This condition has caused me to sleep walk in the past. I also wake people up in my fright, and have to be calmed down. Thankfully it hasn't happened to me for years. (That I'm aware of).
At May 14, 2005 9:25 AM, mikey said…
sup rhi funny you should mention your dream about the lights being dim and not being able to see. i had one reacuring dream that gose along the same lines as yours but in that i also have a hard time to reach the light switch as sometimes my legs refused to move or the switch would not work or the worst one is that my eyes would not want to open no mater what i try to do and i would hear some people comeing from some were but the sound is just fade in and out... but that was years ago when i was a kid, rhi in your post you said you had poor vision weres i didn't and still dont have bad vision and yes i do dream about sex and sex related things only sometimes i little too kinky but in the end it's all just a dream and i think we should all have fun with it. it's good to dream a little as long as you dream in your faver.
At May 15, 2005 10:01 PM, Anonymous said…
There is a product you can get from off ya tree which smells like weed and it is suppsed to make you remember your dreams. I tried it a couple of weeks ago, and you really can remember your dreams, or maybe you just have more of them?
Anyway you should try it.
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