so i ended up crying in the toilets at work. wtf. lets back up a bit.....
does anyone else do this? there are plans for tomorrow... things are going to happen tomorrow so my mind races forward and starts assuming that if THIS happens then THIS might happen and THAT might happen. and the night before, i end up dreaming about the day to come.... yes my dreams are whacked and always end up in much wierder places then the day to come is ever going to end up. but then the day happens and i look forward to it so much
my stomach is in my throat.
i want nothing more than THIS to happen so THAT can happen.... finally THIS happens..... but the whole THAT part just doesn't happen at all. things get in the road, people, things whatever. then circumstances get in the road and it just makes me sad. i'm borderline crying for ages. but wtf why am i crying? THAT was never met to be anything more than... NOTHING.... just FUN.... but suddenly my emotions are getting in the road and i'm crying in the toilets at work.
WTF?!?!?!?!?!?
then again my periods start in 3 days so it could be just PMS.
*note- disregard everything said, i'm just another emotional fucking pathetic useless female, god i hate myself for being like this*
does anyone else do this? there are plans for tomorrow... things are going to happen tomorrow so my mind races forward and starts assuming that if THIS happens then THIS might happen and THAT might happen. and the night before, i end up dreaming about the day to come.... yes my dreams are whacked and always end up in much wierder places then the day to come is ever going to end up. but then the day happens and i look forward to it so much
my stomach is in my throat.
i want nothing more than THIS to happen so THAT can happen.... finally THIS happens..... but the whole THAT part just doesn't happen at all. things get in the road, people, things whatever. then circumstances get in the road and it just makes me sad. i'm borderline crying for ages. but wtf why am i crying? THAT was never met to be anything more than... NOTHING.... just FUN.... but suddenly my emotions are getting in the road and i'm crying in the toilets at work.
WTF?!?!?!?!?!?
then again my periods start in 3 days so it could be just PMS.
*note- disregard everything said, i'm just another emotional fucking pathetic useless female, god i hate myself for being like this*
9 Comments:
At March 24, 2005 9:29 PM, Anonymous said…
so i guess we all do these sort of things, but life goes on, so theres nothing like a little tears of joy or sadness at work, in the car, in the toilet... because if you need to spill then spill.fkm who cares what people think...its about me, me, me and the world we live in........NO REGRETS
always move forward>>>>>>>>
cheers
mrb
At March 24, 2005 10:11 PM, Anonymous said…
let me guess. this involves a guy.
At March 25, 2005 2:07 PM, James said…
Hope your easter turns out to be a pleasant one. :)
At March 25, 2005 2:17 PM, maybe said…
when i get down and have had it with everything, i go home. going back to the folks is a great mini vacation. kick back, relax, and revert back to say.....sometime pre teen years. thats excatly what i am planning on doing this weekend.
HAPPY EASTHER ALL!
hippity hop, hop
At March 25, 2005 2:20 PM, maybe said…
that is easter, i mean...duh me
At March 25, 2005 4:25 PM, mikey said…
isn't the hole point of this site for you (and us) to vent every little stupid emotion filling problem that we have so that it is nolonger bottled up inside of us eating away at us... and i little (or alot) of crying is good for you (or anyone) it's better to do it in the bathroom them at your desk don't worry about it you will soon look back at this and laugh and think how silly it was...
ps. we dont realy need to know your menstrol cycle not that it bothers me though it's nature right..
well at any rate happy easter and all and hope every thing works out for you and with your plans...
cheers ;~)
At March 25, 2005 5:46 PM, Lurker said…
Shine on Rhi, things will go their way and there is nothing we could do about it, but smile at it in the long run :)) Happy easter beauty
At March 26, 2005 11:45 AM, The Frat House said…
I think I've posted this before but...
Please don't cry,
Please forget your woes,
Or you'll drown the fairy,
That lives on your nose. :)
Always makes me smile. Happy Easter dudette.
At March 28, 2005 4:50 PM, Jess said…
Hehe, funny, the same thing happened to me yesterday, I wound up in the toilets crying, and I had no idea why I was crying...well I was just frustrated mainly, but see, you're normal!!!! Lots of people have cried in the work toilets at some point in their lives, and I'm sure there's a few that had PMS too! :-) DW, it's only work!
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