Has everyone voted for the Triple J Hottest 100? If not, GO VOTE NOW! As I was voting, I saw the 'register your party' link, so I registered my Australia Day BBQ.... It would be hilarious if they actually called during the day! I was really hoping the iBook would have arrived by next Wednesday (I placed the order yesterday afternoon through work), so then I could have 'Live BBQ Cam' happening throughout the day. But it says 6-8 days delivery (and I guess that means working days), so I'm not sure it will be here in time. If we have net up and running, I might be able to use my old webcam on Adam's PC downstairs (since the BBQ will be downstairs in the courtyard, not upstairs where my computer is)...... But yea, my fingers are still crossed the net is hooked up AND the laptop comes before next wednesday. How cool would that be?

Steve got on the same bus as me (he's now one stop away), so we were forced to make awkward conversation. He rang me late friday night, wanting to catch up, and in my drunkeness it seemed like a good idea. It just ended in alot of tears and going over the same old stuff, and emotional confusion. He apologised and came over briefly on Saturday, and then on Sunday phoned again wanting to catch up. I wanted to, because I do miss him, but it just brought up all the same old shit again, and we ended up getting pissed off at each other, him walking away, me shouting something stupid, then sending a mad sms later on. This is what happens when we try to force the 'lets be friends' thing, I think.

I want to be fine with seeing him, I want to be fine with being friends. But I do miss him too much, so seeing him is both great and crap at the same time. Being with him makes me feel good and crap at the same time. And then when he or I leave it makes me just feel like poo all over again, and I'm back where I started- trying to get over him.

Anyway, that's that little update. I've been trying to keep busy with work, gym, spending time with Rachel and Cindy. Cindy has been really good company lately. We were going to go to the RG for Trivia Night and cheap meals tonight, but Cindy's friends had to pull out at the last minute, so we're probably just going to find somewhere for dinner and a few drinks, just for something to do. Might go out with all my new flatmates to the new Montezuma's restaurant that just opened down the road. mmmmm mexican food.